MILKSHAKE

Fifteen minutes ago, I told myself that you are not worth my time.. that I won't write about you.. that you don't even deserve a single Facebook status. But look at me now, typing and making sure that I send the message across right. Even making sure that I am giving your description justice. Maybe you meant more that I thought.. You meant/mean more than I admit to you and other people.. myself included.

I want to look at it as something like this.. I was sad and alone with the whole "keeping my guard up" thing going on and you were bored. I always tell myself that we were just on the same place and we needed someone to be there. If it went over that level on your side, I can't really tell and I refuse to assume.. and if you'll ask my side, sometimes it felt like something very special. Something that I want to believe in again, however.. I can't anymore.

Whatever happened or did not happen to us, I'm still glad that we got the chance to hang out and get to know each other. I don't know why you suddenly disappeared though. You didn't even say goodbye. I really thought that you're the "keeper" type but I guess I am wrong. Or maybe you followed my advice to float around in the meantime since a long distance relationship is not my thing. Or.. or.. Anyhow, I wish you're happy.. whatever it is. You were a good friend and you helped me make it through my first couple of weeks here in this far away land.

And let me make it clear.. I'm not mad at you. I understand what happened.

PLAY.

Hello From the Land of Camels

I am back and I hope I can share something interesting. As you all know (wow andami ko bang readers?? wala kaya ni isa! Hahaha), I am now living 8769729878 miles away from my motherland. I call this thing I am doing as me "chasing camels".. whatever that means. I am working nonstop for six days and earning enough to be able to pay the debts that I have. Utanggerra much? Anyways, I can say that I am happy that finally I am able to do something I love and hopefull that I will be able to reach that dream of buying the Philippines. I have millions of tales to tell starting form the plane going here but I will save all those to my closest friends when I come back to Pinas. I realized that if I should share all the katangahans that I did, it should be among those people who will not judge me and still love me despite of those. Chos.

What I noticed after being away from the circulation for nearly two months is that things changed. They dramatically change and some even shocked me. Oh well, what can I do about them.. If there's one thing I learned while being far is the fact that I must always look at the brighter side of things. I will probably commit suicide if I whine about the smallest things. So all I can say is that so be it. Things are what they are right now because destiny said so. I will not argue.

I want to make it clear that I am more than fine here. This is nearly a dream come true. Things are not working perfectly. There are little this and that all around but still I am able to cope and accept. I keep on telling myself that if I survive this, I will end up a better person. And that's what I really want, to be better. :)